Shree: Give me strength

 

100622: Shree: Give me strength

I am troubled by the way things are happening. Troubled is my construct born from mind, body, relations, expectations, change, fear, and so on. But I consider this as a progress that questions of this kind disturb me and I keep looking for answers that situation or objects or people do not provide but are to be found through inner healing process. This is painful if we do not let things be as they are and if we continue to expect things our way. Letting everything “be” as it is means not expecting or judging anything from it. Something favourable or terrible – this is also passing a value judgment. If everything is God, then why even generate this value judgment? Why not only accept?  Manifestation is a phenomenon not triggered by the absolute idea or by absolute consciousness but is a result of relative existence of mind and body or by eruption of vibrations. Here is absolute existence that does not change and hence there is also a property or a tendency of vibration that apparently generates motion and creates perception for us and forms “I” and imagination and situations and relationships.

There is a combination of effort and grace in our lives. Effort is our perception of life and grace is the presence of consciousness from where we also have come. The effort is on account of vibrations and attachment to it or reference to it and not wanting to let go of these vibrations. We are not the vibrations or any of the manifested experiences but only the One. Remembrance of the One in many ways, by many situations, by many feelings, by analysis is required. I get hurt, am full of pain, then I question, then I seek answers, the talk remains in my head (precisely because it has to be resolved internally and we ourselves are generators of hurt or pain and not anyone else) and the talk has to be diffused – sometimes by effort and perhaps by grace at all times that I retrospectively realize. Thus thinking in the head is continuous. Training for silencing is required and will be done. In the meantime, there still will be hurt, pain, loss, grief, silence, healing, love, expectation, justification and all things that make manifestation. BUT it is only because this constant critical voice is kept alive and analyzing each thought (no matter how draining it might become); perhaps I tend to remain controlled or not take things personally and know that God seems to be behind everything so trusting as a feeling becomes primarily important, for which work or a certain training of perception is expected from the self.

Comparison of any external situation encountered by people, places, time zones, values, thoughts, bodies, is not required because everything is an incomplete picture and no matter what one tries to become as motion, it will change and never remain at rest. Empathy - is it necessary? It is important because it trains one’s mind to expand and to empathise or connect with the logic of perception that others seem to have created and to also know that tendencies are hard to break so tolerance and patience of everything is required. Empathy also helps one to accept one’s situation without complaints and realize that everything is an imagination. I am tempted to run away from difficult conversations and the throw of ego by others but if I stay calm then I may just develop the capacity to become assertive in what is required to be said. Secondly what others say is not any judgment about me and conveys an incomplete picture. Can one communicate and connect one’s values with others? Can one communicate loneliness? Can one communicate the dilemmas of existence and the change of space and time and what it means to perception?

Thus becoming God is the only solution to this phenomenon. In the meantime, why these thoughts occur, why this situation, why these relations, why these tendencies in people, why this place and time – all things can be offered to God again. His Will informs everything and is the inspiration behind everything, so why complain. Manifestation is incidental, change is incidental, I am incidental, relationships and people and many are incidental.

God is absolute. Give me strength O God to become You!

Hari Om.