Healing

What if, just as the Sun comes and goes and returns again - unquestioned, unhindered, silent, mute, all sharing, we also learn to be as we are - with all our tendencies? 

The most essential part of remaining silent and being observant/ mindful of our actions - is to heal ourselves. We need this experience for our own benefit. Everyday, we run, we fragment ourselves, we argue, we try to prove something, we pack in quantum of tasks and information, we multitask and we strive to be as productive as possible - all for that ghost idea of being "secured" and achieving comfort. In the end, it is just our thoughts that affect us to the core. If thoughts race ahead and appear fragmented, so we become. 

Healing ourselves involves being aware of the nature of our thoughts and how they seem to create and continuously fill our minds. Thoughts can't be stopped - they have come from our birth and they would continue to be created in us, as long as we live. Thoughts mean our basic urge to survive, sustain ourselves in the given environment. But they also display emotions, feelings, imaginations - since we are concerned with our own existence. We have the awareness to look at our own thoughts and control them, as we realize that only they create an experience we call "life". 

However, the conflict is in our expectation to control the thoughts in absolute sense. Our attachment to existential phenomena is enormous - mind, our body, family, people, physical materials and even concepts like prestige, desire, longing and so on. Attachment is because we believe that our survival depends on such things, and as long as things change, they affect our thoughts and we get affected. Any object, situation, manifestation is bound to change. Any object, situation, manifestation (or creation) has place-time quality and that is how we perceive our existential world. It is impossible to expect place-time to remain static or in our control - thus we continue to act or run with the hope that we will "catch" this elusive thing. What we are running for is a vacant space. The Space is to be "realized" in us.

To realize the space in us, is to experience that it is an all encompassing dimension of everything in this universe. Space is there and therefore, we exist as a phenomena and not the reverse. As Space has no start or an end point, it is beyond control or analysis or question or justification or security or comfort or stability or any other manmade concept. We exist in spatial terms as well as existential terms. 

By slowing down ourselves and our thoughts, we may sense the presence of space in us. This starts to heal us because, we no longer fight our thoughts or run away from something or run towards anything. What we start to do is to only "be" in this space-thought dimension and accept it the way it is.