The ‘I’ in the Medium

Who is this ‘me’?

I want this, I want that….I hate this or I love that. I am fat or I am thin. I like him or I dislike her….

The ‘I’ is like an imagined boundary. Observe what that boundary does to you!

Should the boundary be abandoned? Should it be ignored? Should it be ridiculed?...Of course not! We are what we are – the ‘I’ is the basis for giving direction to life. If the ‘I’ is abandoned or ridiculed, so is life!

Conversely, should the boundary be made sacrosanct? That you justify your efforts, your faults, your excuses, your expectations, your wants over everything else? That you consider the world no worthy to step up to your pedestal? Do it, and the world would show you the finger!

If not this and not that, then how is this ‘I’ to be seen? Is it real or imaginary? Is it true whatever it says or all false? Don’t know. What this ‘I’ does, is to create an ambiguous terrain. What gets created is your decision. You can perceive and conceive the way you want. Since ‘I’ is abstract, it can expand, contract, the way it chooses to. Slowly, you will realize the medium wherein this movement of ‘I’ takes place.

The only way to understand ‘I’ is to observe it whole heartedly, without imposing any value judgments and without clinging too many expectations on itself.

Why should ‘I’ do this exercise? Not compulsory. If not done, then one can’t sense the medium, one only perceives the ‘I’. We protect the ‘I’ from imagined onslaught and keep running for a hopeful scenario of control, wherein the ‘I’ will remain perfectly safe….However, if we try, we can realize that the medium is beyond the imagined notions of the ‘I’ and therefore, blissful. The path to realize this experience, is to watch the ‘I’.