Shree: Test

 

110422: Shree: Test

Today I was giving a psychological test. The questions revealed that much of our time is engaged in some kind of a self talk – that decides our perception of reality. The self talk maybe rational or irrational or situational or from the past or something about the imagination of future.  

We are presented with this self talk. The issue is to be unconditional and any aspect of space or time does not (or need not) define what we are (it is not absolute); and to keep trying and to know which things are in our control and which may not be and it is perfectly ok to be ambiguous and gray about existential clarity. Well, by default, perception is incomplete and hence there is bound to be a feeling of impermanence and a construct of reality which is forever changing and which will compel one to question things again and again, despite how much ever it might have been thought over before. That is all ok and is not a cause to feel jittery about anything.

Secondly it also reveals that we have our internal world of thoughts that may be perceived in a very different manner by others based on our actions. I may be introverted but because I may be fluent in expressing my thoughts to anyone, others may think that I am highly expressive and talkative and extroverted fellow. Thus truth is not so obvious and that is the beauty of life – nothing is straight and obvious on the face of it. This also means that what I consider myself is truer than what others may say anything about it – so we create our own truth and hence we can become our best friends or worst enemies.  Thus it is always better to accept the self authentically to what one is and that becomes a more comfortable situation than anything else in the world – even more important than security or money or any material pursuit. To be comfortable with oneself is to accept one with all feelings, thoughts, aspirations, fears and to accept that it is all ok to be in this manner. Essentially it is to be non judgmental and loving to oneself and that is more important than anything else in the world. I do not care if I have money or what manifestation demands from me or how should I behave. This is a ridiculous undertaking. What I do care is to become comfortable for myself and that will mean feelings, analysis, aspirations, idea of competition, pace of life, accepting the unknown, accepting ideas of life and so on.

I am not a great person – I am average – as a human being. I am ok with not knowing many things and not competing enough and taking time to say things and probably being confused at times and knowing dilemmas. That is me. And what I am has got nothing to do with the responsibility of cleaning the mess of the world and neither does it mean that it is expected of me to be in a particular way. In any case, all has come from God; all is God and I am only a wave.

Hari Om.