I don't know

 

270222: Shree: I don’t know.

Mind has the ability to become focused on one spot or to disperse on several spots. Focus or concentration leads to transcendence and dissolving vibrations and mind itself and to become consciousness. Thus, consciousness is always there – as a state of existence – it is only that we do not concentrate on one spot and hence it does not come into existence. So what do we concentrate on at present? We concentrate on motion – dispersing mind on several spots, being conditional, treating situations and change as something real and to be responded to, treating all events true and continuously anxious and worried about changing scenario or projecting past or future as realities to be addressed and entertaining anger, turmoil, guilt, and other emotions. These things we make it “real” and they come into existence. So existence is that, which we make it “real”. One can also go on to say that there are “states” of reality from vibrations to forces to visible manifestation (or manifestation may itself mean vibrations to forces to forms) or from invisible to visible or from One to Many or from bliss to turmoil or from permanence to change.

So mind makes things “real”(and by “things”, we mean from consciousness to forms). I see an object right now or a person or a situation is an indication of the state of my existence. I think these things change and hence I depend on this change and I get frightened or stressed or worried. What role do “we” have here anyway? Who are “we” and what are “we”? Many things at present need to be delinked. I link words by others to my self worth; I link words by others to demands or secondary guilt or secondary frustration or compulsion of response; I link relationship and its health to my incompleteness of avoiding disaster and so on, I link time to survival, I link forms to many such perceptions, I perceive and that affects me.

The point is I exist regardless of anything and that does not require any justification. We make the mistake of attaching existence with mind and body (vibrations) and hence if they change, we get disturbed expecting them to remain the same – which in itself is impossible. Then we become conditional and we expect things to go our way – which they may not. We thinking anything or doing anything or existing in anyway may or may not guarantee a blissful state. Guarantee of permanence itself is a false expectation. Yet we do the same and that is what is attachment or the tendency or effect of vibration on us.

I think we need to accept that manifestation means to be incomplete and that is all to it. This means that incompleteness is its very nature (coming from vibrations) and hence that will propel all kinds of thoughts within us and result in creating a reality for us. Despite all this incompleteness, we still are eternal and require no justification to exist. Can you visualize this feeling of existence that requires or expects no answers or conditions or evaluations? To visualize and become such a state means to become God. My being here or not being here is immaterial and should not (or need not) define a purpose or intent or lay any conditions on anything. I simply am and that itself is a complete fact of existence. I am. Tomorrow what will happen and can I control it or the past was in a particular way to make me in this state and certain events turned out in this manner and certain people have these tendencies and I think (only) in this manner and so on…..is it required to think and lay our evaluation of self based on these imaginations?

Accept that I am. Who am I? I don’t know. What am I? I don’t know. What will become of me? I don’t know. Why am I in this manner? I don’t know. Why is the current situation in this manner? I don’t know. What was I in previous lives? I don’t know. What will happen tomorrow? I don’t know. Why isn’t there any response from people? I don’t know. What have I done to piss him off? I don’t know. Why is there so much hardship? I don’t know. Why does he not listen? I don’t know. Why do I keep engaging these thoughts? I don’t know. Why am I compelled to respond? I don’t know. I literally do not know anything about the nature of existence and believe it or not – it is still ok!! For, consciousness is the only Reality that creates all constructs and manifestations and even me or you. Everything is essentially divine and hence everything will be ok.

Hari Om.