I am

 

020322: Shree: I am

Random. Bizarre and absurd. Unplanned.

To intellectually analyze existence may lead one to encounter these mentioned conclusions and to get frightened by the same. It is possible to feel existence in this way and it is ok and in this feeling lies the urge to transcend the language of logic.

We do not get the answer to existence in whatever manner one may start as a variable in whatever manned one may plan things – THIS in itself is an indicator of the presence of existence that is beyond the intellect (or the intellect being one of the subsets of consciousness). Nothing can describe the presence of consciousness in absolute completeness, since “we” as a phenomenon, are incomplete as a dimension of existence. In other words, motion cannot sense non motion although it has been born by non motion’s presence. Hence words of opposite, transformation, dissolution, apparent, illusion are used to talk about motion and consciousness. Behind everything lies Him and He is eternal, peaceful, unconditional and forever no matter what the clouds say or do and no matter if there is sunshine or thunderstorm – His presence will always BE and will not be defined by anything (least of all by any purpose of ego). How can completeness be described by something or some phenomenon that has limitation? Thus we are clouds or transient “forms” that can only get a glimpse of Him, although He is present in us. When we say our mind or body (as vibrations or desires); they have already caused a limitation of our perception and under whose influence we continue to plan and construct our egos and survival language.

The path is from motion to become non motion. This means that all manifestations have an ingredient or the seed of consciousness, else we would not have felt or even encountered the state of bliss. The effort is to grow the seed till it becomes the tree of Divinity. This also means that all perceptions and their constructs are a result of the property of consciousness to vibrate and make forces and forms. I see forms of myself and you, which means I am vibrating as a phenomenon and making some signals, dissolving some others and perceiving existence as motion. So this “I” is understood as a body or mind or vibrations or consciousness – every state of existence changes the perception of existence itself.

The picture is incomplete at present and hence things appear as they are – always incomplete; always urging us to remain engaged; always expecting something; always making us run after our constructs; always changing; always constructing you and me. So is there any problem with this state? Not really if one understands that it is all a part of existence. One should remain extremely calm and observe these forces within oneself and how they form perception of situations. Observe and be silent and these forces dissolve. Thus, to dissolve or create is in the hands of existence. To think means to generate and create. I am always incomplete in relationships with people, with situations and fundamentally with myself as motion. BUT that is ok and that does not mean I cannot think or love or help or forgive or forget or offer or devote or act. That is, I can become unconditional despite any of the constructs. I can become transcendental in any situation. I am present regardless of anything. I am divine regardless of motion.

An anxious person keeps on thinking of many parameters to control – all of them are imaginary. No matter what parameters are invented, they change and more are known. So as more parameters are known at the micro and macro scales, the knowledge or feeling of uncertainty also increases. Hope to control also create an expectation of permanence and the fear of change. I can see many things in my routine going completely haywire with people, with situations, with intents, with expectations, with time and with myself, despite whatever effort I may be putting in there. Why this burden and for what and is it required? Am I required to do something for responding to frustration and annoyance? Am I supposed to be in a particular way and maintain a particular position? Am I supposed to also be aware of the shifting position? Does that really mean anything to me or you? And as long as you exist in my frame of engagement, I am also endorsing myself (ego). Why did people react in particular ways and why does one behave in a particular way and why do things happen in particular ways – need not be a matter of discussion and planning – things just happen.

Many things that we construct are just burden of existence as motion that we ourselves fabricate. First of all, we do not die, contrary to whatever our imagination tells us. Secondly, we are always there and can exercise being non judgmental, loving and caring and compassionate and focused. Eternal existence can offer us this. I am eternal and I have unlimited potential. Perception of motion is incidental and like a dream – I can break it.

One way is to keep saying God’s name, regardless of any situation. By focusing and persistence, God is revealed.

Hari Om.