Shree

 

Shree

one never knows fully for what purposes actions take place and perceived. it is all by God, i like to believe since our existence in motion keeps changing and is only relative, dependent, conditioned, partial truth and is a construct. what we feel, so perception develops and we respond. this also leads to feelings of impermanence and guilt, at times. guilt or pain or the inability to know the truth is a natural feeling and it will occur no matter what efforts are taken to tackle the feeling. these feelings are to be only accepted in silence and it does not mean that some talking is required or debate is required. sitting alone, loitering, just being present in conditions  that generate pain from people also is a healing process. i may not be able to talk of pain to my mother but talking of ideas, being with her and being silent is also a way of acknowledging the painful experience. as much as i may try to hide or suppress the feeling, it will come back and harm me if not embraced as soon as possible. this calls for observation, sometimes, talking, sometimes discussing, sometimes not heading straight at the subject, sometime remaining silent, sometimes seeing the sun together and so on. therefore, love for Existence does not  require any definite action and expected response. and this observation is also true for everything else that we do in our existential perception.

i have no idea why things appear in some form and i am not required to label it or oppose it. all are me, my self, my extensions, so why complain? all come out of me. we unnecessarily get into solving issues of motion but they won't go away. as long as some form of separation is felt or perception is expressed, change and dependence and pain is inevitable. pain is also inherent as a struggle for caring, nourishing and creating something for all. i do not believe that there is something like an individual and all things should work accurately the way they are thought about. how can learning and empathy even occur if not for repeated failures and uncontrollable changes and the turmoil and acceptance of all? these feelings are important and with change in age or environment or situations, different feelings will materialize.

there is no start point for any answer neither we should assume that the answer would be found by "fixing" something. we never know the complete truth and hence we are in a situation where we work and we trust - both  things are required from us. Love, empathy, bliss comes from transformation or evolution of grosser feelings - we have to walk through them or face them, embrace them, accept them.

therefore be calm and listen and be full of patience. all things come from God and there is a reason and a lesson of learning in each of the situations of becoming. all is only One medium and all are my self, so pain is inherent, so is empathy and so is acceptance and love.

the "road" comes into existence if we move fast without considering other things around us. a "path" becomes evident if we meander and take time to connect with everything around us. fast is not necessarily beneficial and slow does not mean permanence of anything. but the need of connecting is fundamental since that is what keeps manifestation alive. hence we may not know the complete answer for anything we do at a given moment but existence and love is more than the sum of all incomplete parts! perhaps we were meant to be born in a particular condition, doing something, feeling the turmoil and the pain, encountering change, facing situations in some manner and so on. perhaps this is what will lead us to become the One, no matter how much impossible it may seem at present. perhaps this is what is meant to become blissful. trust.

Hari Om.