Shree: Change

 

010422: Shree: Change

I felt to begin today’s day with writing. Existence can be expressed in many ways – what it is; how it is felt; what it is supposed to mean and so on. One may dwell on these aspects and may choose to brush such inquiry aside, but whatever your state of mind – it is a Higher calling. What makes certain vibrations visible and generate certain thoughts and actions and how those change and perhaps are replaced by something else – is the nature of existence in motion. Only observe the change.

Change means a continuous flow of things or situations formed by vibrations. This means that space and time wait for none or rather space and time means change. If this thought is taken deep inside then we will realize the depth of change that happens within to a point where non motion is realized. In other words, it means at a visible level that the desperation and craze for control or finding out start point or sequences or perfect conditions has limitations and they keep our engagement with motion forever. Honestly speaking, what are we racing against or fighting against and why? Things happen and change; everything changes. We too represent the character of change and hence this is the nature of Existence one needs to acknowledge. Whatever we invent is still in the world of motion and hence conditioned and subjected to change – thus has limitations and does not offer bliss perpetually. Perhaps the point is about survival, and that too is a flawed concept. One must love Existence despite the change that seems to happen or seems to impact us. Love is unconditional and it only exists without seeking any justification or evaluation or any proof. This is the highest state of Existence I feel.

Many times when people say something, we rush to evaluate or control or offer explanation as a defense or plan to avoid impending disaster or are quick to judge – meaning we are not being attentive to listening in an unconditioned manner.

Why to judge anything? A kid is a kid and so is an elder and so is a gender. The various forms undertaken reveal various characters of Existence. If we listen, then we will be able to sense the subtle character of Existence and what triggers what kind of behavior. The intellect rushes to decode the variables of forms in the hope of control. I would suggest that variables may be discovered only to understand the situation that is being encountered (but not for control). In this discovery, something of our own self is also revealed and many other things for which straight forward or logical or visible answers cannot be found (and need not be found). Herein lies the capacity of trust. To realize this Unknown dimension means to become peaceful with Existence. All motion comes from Unknown and hence visibility has a changing character and one may analyze it in terms of variables but nothing more than that. For bliss, one needs to go beyond the visible forces.

Situations confronting old age and degeneration of body and their impact on the mind and thoughts and generation of fear – disturbs me at times (mother and father). Disturbance is because of fear and this needs to be admitted for myself. Fear is because of mind and body which will end someday. Fear is because I cannot stop the change that I perceive around me. Fear is because of my attachment to situations. Fear is because I do not know if I can embrace change or perhaps that I maybe weak. All this is self talk.

Ask yourself what difference does it make if things change without knowing anything in advance? Ask this question sincerely to yourself a billion times till change will hardly matter to you.

I, as existence, am NOT the motion. In other words, I am “free” to love and become blissful irrespective of any visible change or situation. This is a capacity I can develop. When my mother admits fear, when my father becomes anxious, conveys annoyance – the question is am I required to act and take any “control” of change and the bigger question is – is the control really required? They expressing fear is understood by me as “fear” within myself and that disorients me. This may develop understanding of their situation, but does not negate stress for me. It may offer patience, but cannot negate sadness. Thus understanding also perhaps is limited and there is a reason why sometimes, a gap is necessary. What is suggested here is only to listen and yet remain calm amidst this interdependent change.

We visualize control and hence keep remaining engaged with fabricated situations and we keep playing with this fabrication. This is our mind playing tricks with us. Wake up from the dream world of engagement and realize that all is only the One. Wake up from the dream of vibrations and become still.

Hari Om.