Hurt

 

140122: Shree

Time and again one thing gets proved that no matter how much care one takes about thinking of philosophy and God and behavior, one gets misinterpreted again and again. Why does this happen cannot be answered and going after the answer itself in that sense creates an ambiguous scenario and deconstructs notions of “me” – what I am supposed to do; what I am doing; what I expect; what I am entitled to receive; and what actually the situation becomes or is perceived by me.

Finally it becomes a matter of perception, which governs or informs my imagination. Again, the answer to irritations of all kinds does not lie “there itself” and perhaps because we are human beings, irritations are integral part of our nature- all things are essentially perfect – by thinking and by ego, we make them appear imperfect and try to “solve” situations. This is fear. This is vibration and this is Maya.

Dissolve the perceptions born out of purpose/ intent/ form and things dissolve or situations dissolve or they appear mere movements or the illusion goes away and we become the One.

Many times, we may tend to think that we are imperfect and hence need to do this or that or think in this way or that way or say words in this way or that way and mitigate situations in this manner. We may try this, eventually all efforts are relative to change and hence limited in their effects. Our existence as motion changes and our perceptions too and also by others. Yet, being subjected to these pulls is accepted as long as one realizes that it is inevitable and an essential part of evolution. So do not feel guilty about anything or be annoyed about anything. This is training to be done on the self. All life and situations are training grounds for realizing our soul.

What situations happen, who says what and how one reacts, again, does not convey anything about our self worth. Please remind this to yourself again and again. We should no doubt remain engaged but not for any purpose or expectations or out of ego. Since God is the only absolute Truth, we trust this entity from which we have inherited a form.

Nothing can stop hurt for us except our own analysis and acceptance of existence of divinity within us and no one is to be blamed if we are not understood in any way or if the efforts do not get acknowledged. God is watching us or is a witness to our actions and intent. If at all, we need to be answerable to someone, then it is God.

Sorry for being annoyed. And I forgive myself (first of all) and others too.

Hari Om.