Shree: Primitive Architecture and Mimar Houses (preliminary)

Shree: Primitive Architecture and Mimar Houses (preliminary)

Thoughts from two books – Mimar Houses that have a few chapters on nomadic architecture and Primitive architecture that solely focuses on the idea of nomads, semi nomads and their architecture.

Primitive architecture is written from anthropological perspective, wherein how is ‘territory’ (geography) reconstructed out of history and myth and how that reflects onto the phenomenon of siting, site plan, spatial conception and perception by those people, and the forms that get generated because of such forces (at least that seems the manner in which the text goes). Therefore, perhaps form as an architectonic expression of immediate context and who does what and how (construction) has secondary emphasis here. It also seems to suggest to me that depending on one’s existential context (in this case nomad) the human mind imagines “territory” not only as a physical place wherein natural resources are available but also how does one imagine/ anchor/ identify with the given terrain wherever the nomad goes. So there may be a ‘history’ of ancestors that generate a definition of appropriate territory that they are required to enact, followed by how new resources become part of the story or the myth of God and relationship between God and nomad – all these seem to become the start points of laying stake over nomadic architecture. We then move onto enactment and expression of this myth or a story onto “idea diagrams” wherein above characters may become part of the diagrams, an anthropomorphic representation of site, spaces, may occur and also an inclusion of clans, hierarchy, social relations and gender roles may also get featured. Thus it is felt that there is a continuum between myth, geography, first ancestor, history, social relations and activities involved into making of architectural form. Architecture represents the culmination of all these thoughts occurring in the mind and perhaps just as whatever power the paintings may evoke among cave painters, similar power the architecture may be evoking in all the nomads – maybe referred as subconscious thinking (to paraphrase Eliel Saarinen).

The book is highly textual/ descriptive – for the architect concerned with more diagrams and spatial relationships that may not offer much. What it offers is a description of a phenomenon suported by idea diagrams that may have been interpreted for some steps. Questions about overall connections of all diagrams onto architecture remain (and that may not get reolved anytime soon I feel).

Therefore a phenomenon of migration undertaken by Kazaks going in circles for 400 km is described as an overview. But how does that construct a territory, what gets encountered at each camping site and how the whole gets represented in the part – of architecture – as connections and as diagrams is not clear enough. Addition of more diagrams may be of assistance and diagrams may be idea diagrams or space diagrams.

Taking the same example of Kazaks and their tent – Yurt – the Mimar Houses start from the architectural end of the phenomenon. With a series of diagrams it is easily possible to know how a Yurt gets done by material supply, assembly, people and carrying it over camels and how space is used inside for what purposes. This is where architecture’s diagrams can contribute I feel. Of course the focus does not deviate or does not go much beyond the practical necessities of Yurt Architecture. Herein the question remains how such spaces that are represented in plan offer a glimpse of their construct of ‘territory’ and their world view or values? This question is not addressed in this book.

Another essay in the same book talks about how ‘architecture’ of nomads as a whole can be interpreted and it lays some intuitive observations on the ‘forms’ of tent that may signify need of anchoring in a hostile environment and hence the closed ended forms; highly decorated interiors with rich symbolism; customization; gender roles; emphasis on tactile sensations; enhanced symbolism on structural members and the ‘tent’ meaning shelter/ place of hiding/ sacred enclosure/ marriage/ world and many other things in their life. The word “anchor” and “meaning” as an intrinsic human need (or feeling) is spoken about here and hence its reflection onto creation of space. This I felt was a very intuitive understanding of interpretation of form and perhaps need not have any other dimensions of socio-cultural-political identity – an absolute condensation of all feelings (phenomenological idea?). Another reference in the same essay was made on Bachalard (Poetics of Space) wherein he mentions that those who find themselves isolated from environments (or if environments have little to offer) then the forms of such people become “rounded”. This is interesting since it tells us why a roundedness appears. Round is a symbolic representation (as a close ended entity, perhaps seem to have tight or non porous borders of intercommunication between inside-outside to such an extent that the internal world has a character of its own that can only signify the external elements in symbolic manner – in one way it may be said to be the highest form of “abstraction”? and then it opens up another topic of what does one mean by making things “abstract” – does it mean a process of internalization; does it mean a process of representation; does it mean realization of fundamental and non formative forces that underlie everything; does it mean representing a ‘thing’ by some hidden dimension of structure or forms or forces etc.? Therefore, abstraction does not mean only to decode or dissect and finally annhiliate a thing to its bare essentials. Again, annhiliation (or removal) is not a physical thing (as is erroneously thought about) but a process of even constructing something mysterious from the inner processes of the mind. Thus substractions or additions are too crude and superfluous terms perhaps used in architecture? Both may mean entirely different and have huge overlaps while undertaking a process of internalization.

Another take of this book is that it challenges the distinction or the idea of conventional practice of client, architect, builder and end user as the default stakeholders and it says that in tent architecture, everyone is equally everyone else! This is obvious as a difference but what I wish to add here that has conventional mode of architecture come to this point that it can ‘only’ sustain the four stakeholders in a project as against primitive or tent architecture wherein all characters from mythology to historical ancestors to territories to social relations to physical relations to other forms become the legible characters in creating a story of architectural form? So have we (as urban architects) become too gross or superfluous in the name of complexity and is the primitive architecture too rich with experiences that these apparent urban based practice that acknowledges just four stakeholders appear too abstract or distant from their point of view? Another perspective may be that stratification and power relations of some form appear in any kind of architectural manifestation - either in primitive or in urban setup. Therefore what changes is only the language of imagination (or of connection) where space for thought, feelings, social relationships, environment need to be given and likewise an expression need to respond to such a conception.

श्री: प्रवास

 

श्री: प्रवास

आकार देणे हि क्रिया तुझ्या अस्तित्वामुळे प्रत्ययास येते. वृत्ती, गुण, विचार, भावना आणि शरीर हे “आकार” होण्याचे साधन आहेत आणि एकावर एक लेप चढवून दृश्य जग निर्माण करतात. म्हणजेच कि एक एक लेप आपण काढले कि दृश्याची रचना बदलते (आपली मनोधारणा बदलते) आणि शेवटचा लेप काढला कि जे “उरत” किवा “राहत” किवा कायम असत ते म्हणजे सत्य, शाश्वत, स्थिर, आनंद, अनंत, आकारहीन  - “श्री”. “काहीच नाही” म्हणजे दृश्यातीत होणे आणि स्वच्छ आनंद असणे कुठलही कारण नसतांना  - म्हणजे पूर्णपणे स्वतंत्र अस अस्तित्व. It is to become Existence without any form. This means that a ‘form’ is a dimension of Existence that is perceived in and through and as space and time. “In” means that perception occurs in a given fabric of perception – perception and fabric are inseparable. “Through” means that the same fabric has made us, which is also externally present. And “as” means the representational and the represented language of Existence is the fabric itself, which is again in terms of space and time. Hence our own creation, mode of operation (which is perception) and the medium of operation (space and time) speak the same language. In other words, the inner world and the outer world and the relationship of the two are interlinked. Therefore, what we are concerned is the “relationship” (or collaboration) of any two things that make a phenomenon – you and me or inside and outside or past and the present or vernacular and modern or lived experience and abstraction etc. Abstracting this equation further, we arrive at a “sequencing of perceived variables”. As long as a variable “seems to exist”, we are indicating at least two variables, along with their relationship and the observer! So much for Oneness!

Now the question is how is bliss or peace achieved? And the answer to this is - it is NOT through any perceived variables! Yet to achive this state of transcendence where variables “need not” exist; we need to start with whatever we have and whatever we think we are (how much ever incompleteness we may be experiencing at the moment).

हि स्थिती येण्यासाठी मधले टप्पे आणि विचारांचं स्वरूप ध्यानात घ्यायला हव म्हणजेच ते टप्पे ओलांडता येऊ शकतील. आपण काळजी करतो, त्रास भोगतो आणि चिंता करतो. ह्याच उत्तर शोधून काढा. हे विचार का निर्माण होतात आणि कुठून येतात आणि त्याला आपण का आपल्या मनात आश्रय देतो? त्यातून अहंकाराच (त्याला “जीव” असही संबोधित केल आहे) स्वरूप कळून येईल, किती खोलवर प्रकरण आहे ते हि कळायला लागेल आणि दृश्याची संकल्पना काय आहे हे हि कळू लागेल. त्यातून कळेल कि जीव हि मनाची स्थिती आहे आणि परमात्मा हि देखील मनाची स्थिती आहे. म्हणजेच आपल्याला प्रवास जीवापासून ते परमात्मा पर्यंत करायचा आहे. तोच आहे प्रवास, दुसरा तिसरा कुठलाही नाही!

असो, तर आपल्याला सध्याच्या स्थितीत कार्य करणे भाग आहे आणि सतत भगवंताची जाणीव जागृत ठेवणे आवश्यक आहे. जाणीव देखील भावना आहे – त्याच स्वरोप विशाल आहे आणि फक्त शब्दाला पकडून नाही. ह्याचाच अर्थ कि आपल्या हातात प्रयत्न आहे, बाकी सर्व त्याच्या इच्छेने होत. प्रयत्न करतातंना बर्याच भावना मनात उद्भवत राहतात, त्यांना पार करून योग्य ती कृती करणे महत्वाच आहे – त्यातूनच भगवंताच विशाल स्वरूप जाणवेल. आपण जो पर्यंत मनातल्या भावना पार करत नाही, तो पर्यंत दृश्यातीत भगवंत प्रकट होत नाही/ दिसणार नाही. म्हणजे जि काही भीती, राग, दुख आहे, ते समजावे आपले “टप्पे”. त्यांना सामोरं जाऊन पलीकडे जायचं आहे. पलीकडे जाणे म्हणजेच मनस्थिती बदलणे, म्हणजेच भगवंतस्वरूप होणे, म्हणजेच श्रद्धा वाढवणे.

हरि ओम.

 

Shree: Meaning

 

Shree: Meaning

Shree, as an aspect of variables, these are imaginations, not absolute reality. That has many effects on our making, perception, dependence and change. One of the things is to constantly prove the self-existence; constantly be at it; constantly fight and defend and argue and keep discussing. One of the ways to diffuse this energy of isolation is to make it interconnected or generate a feel of interconnections and this means discussions, doing things together, giving time and help. That does not ensure any material prosperity (it may be a byproduct – as any aspect of motion; it will be felt as a mere imagination and nothing real; it may be felt fluid and You will be felt) but what it seems to generate in the self is a larger idea of One medium and generating stability or steadiness.

Expression is incidental; its nature can be thought about – it may become individual (represented; outward; extroverted; anxious; full of demands; complexities and so on) or it can become connected and transcendental (introverted; expansive; stable; no demands; acceptance; love; compassionate; patient and so on).

Whether people talk or not and what happens around the self is not something to be taken personally and be concerned about. Definition and Existence is not subjected to any rules or variables. In a way, responsibility is a constructed term born from motion; not of Existence.

Who knows if collective values and living were better than the current individualistic modes of living or vice versa? Since nothing is known, the situation of present only takes the shape of being “critical” – it may not offer peace! Motion for its own sake does not carry any meaning. The meaning of motion comes from transcendental presence of You. But again, meaning is not only defined intellectually and individually by intellectual dimension. Meaning is a wholesome construct born from all dimensions of the mind – feelings and connections included. Any system that seems to cater only for intellectual pursuits may become a drag and a cumbersome affair subsequently.

Hence the reality is You and to become You all modes of perception are required to be engaged.

Hari Om.

श्री: विश्लेषण

श्री: विश्लेषण

स्पष्टीकरण देणे हे काही गरजेच नाही. भीती खूप खोलवर गेली आहे आणि ती का, कुठे, कशी, उद्भवते ह्यासाठी खूप प्रयत्न करायला लागतात. तसं म्हणलं तर सर्व काही विश्लेषण आहे, काळ्या दगडावरची पांढरी रेग नाही! म्हणजेच कि ठोस कारण संकल्पनेसाठी आणि निर्मितीसाठी काहीही नाही. आपण कोण आहोत, कार्य म्हणजे काय, अस्तित्वाची शक्ति म्हणजे काय, वृत्ती म्हणजे काय आणि काय अनुभवायला येत – हे सार विश्लेषण आहे. करणारा तूच आहे श्री, आम्ही फक्त अनुभवतो तुझी शक्ति.

विश्लेषण म्हणल तर ते जन्मो जन्मी एका वृत्तीतून आल आहे. त्यातून आपण होतो, आपण बघत राहतो, कार्य करतो आणि आकार अनुभवतो. आकार म्हणल तर परिस्थिती, बदल, संबंध, कारण, वृत्ती, विचार, भावना, अनुभव, स्थळ, काळ, निर्मिती त्यावर अशे अनेक “क्रिया” होत राहतात. तु आकारात येतोस म्हणजे तुझी शक्ति प्रत्ययास येते आणि बर्याच गुणांनी स्वरुपात येते. हे आकारात येणे आणि मावळणे म्हणजे तुझी शक्ति. तुझा अस्तित्व अस घडवून आणते तर त्याला ठोस कारण आणि घाबरणे आणि स्पष्टीकरण देण्यात काय अर्थ आहे?! जे आहे ते आहे, नाही का?

मी कुठला प्रश्न घेऊन आलो आणि त्यातून कुठल्या गोष्टी आठवतात आणि कुठले प्रसंग आणि कुठले आकार हे गूढ आहे. एका प्रकारचे वृत्ती का पोसले जातात, हा हि प्रश्न गूढ आहे. अस का तर माहीत नाही – स्पष्टीकरण देऊ शकीन, पण त्याने काय होणार आहे? स्पष्टीकरण दिल तर माझाच अहंकार पोसला जाईल आणि हे घातक आहे. म्हणजे अहंकारामुळे, आपण अनुभव निर्माण करत राहतो आणि अहंकार म्हणल तर तुझी आठवण विसरणे. तु आणि मी काही वेगळे नाही, पण हेच मला कळत नाही. जिकडे पहावे तूच आहे, आकार नाही. ते मला कळायला हव.

दुसरी गोष्ट अशी कि मानव म्हणल तर तात्पुर्तेपणा आला – त्या भावना आल्या. त्याला का घाबराव? आणि ते कधी “झाकून” टाकता येणार आहे का? आपण नेहमीच “उघडे” पडले आहोत – वृत्तींमुळे. झाकण्याचा प्रश्नच येत नाही – स्वतःला कळल तरी खूप आहे. ह्या सर्व काही विश्लेषणात्मक परिस्थितीतून शांत व्हायचा प्रयत्न हाती घ्यायचा आहे. कोण काय म्हणतय आणि काय होईल – हा मुद्दाच नाही आहे. काय दिसतंय हा हि मुद्दा नाही. आणि दुसरे लोक म्हणजे कोण हा हि मुद्दा नाही. मुद्दा आहे कि “मी” म्हणजे कोण? आणि “मी” असा का आहे, का झालो आणि कुठे जाणार आहे?

स्वतःच चिंतन आहे – हि शक्ति समजून घ्यायची आहे – स्पष्टीकरण कोणी विचारत नाही!

हरि ओम.

 

श्री

श्री

श्री, आपण म्हणजे विचार नाही – त्याच्या पलीकडे आहोत. विचार करून आपण सिद्ध होत नाही = फक्त तुझी शक्ति प्रकट होते. घाबरणे किवा चिंता करणे हे अपुर्णत्वाच लक्षण आहे किवा त्याच भावनेला महत्व देण्यासारख आहे. असंख गोष्टींची आम्ही चिंता करतो, श्री. कुणी काय बोलेल; काय विचारेल; त्यातून आपण पूर्ण कसे ठरू किवा अपूर्णता कशी पुढे येईल, किती काम करणे, किवा नाही करणे, कसं बोलणे, किवा नाही बोलता येणे, वेग, काळ, स्थळ, मर्यादा, अट्टाहास, वायफळ बडबड करणे, किवा बोलणे, चक्क टाळणे, विभागणी करणे किवा न करणे, कामाचा आव आणणे, उद्या काय होईल किवा असच होईल अशी अपेक्षा बाळगणे, हेतू बद्दल शाश्वती नसणे, आणि मुख्यतः सत्य नाही ओळखता येणे आणि जे “दृश्यात भासणे” त्याच्या नादी लागून खूप काही भोगणे. तसं पहिले तर गोष्टी घडण्यामागे सूक्ष्म शक्ति, तुझीच, कार्यक्ष्म असते  - ज्याला आपण स्वच्ह ज्ञान, हेतू, स्थिरता अशी उपमा देऊ शकतो. जेव्हा तुझी शक्ति दृश्यात अवतरते तेव्हा त्याला अनेक हेतू, वृत्ती, विचार, भावना, गुण “आकार” देतात आणि मग आम्ही तुला विसरतो! काय तुझी माया आणि लीला! The “creation of the form” is a Divine act or coming from the presence of Existence. म्हणून बर्याच संकल्पनेतून आणि बर्याच सूक्ष्म शक्तीतून गोष्टी घडून येतात, बदलतात, मावळतात आणि ह्या सर्व घटनां मधून आपण (मानव) काही सिद्ध होत नाही, किवा विचारांची व्याख्या निर्माण होत नाही किवा विचार म्हणजे अस आणि तसं – अस समीकरण आपण वापरू शकत नाही किवा आपण स्वतः कोण हे विचारांच्या पातळीवरून कुणालाही ठरवता येत नाही. तशी करण्याचीही गरज नाही कारण सर्व संकल्पना तुझ्या अस्तित्वातूनच येत आहे, तर त्याला बाळंतपण करणारा आणि गोन्जवणारा मी कोण?!

आपण का आलो आहोत आणि काय करण्याचा प्रयत्न करत आहोत हे ओळखायला लागत – त्याच चिंतन करायला लागत आणि योग्य असे संस्कार मनाला सतत द्यायला लागतात. संस्कार खूप सूक्ष्म पातळीपासून उद्भवत असतात म्हणून ते अनंत काळ चालून आलेले असतात किवा त्याचा परिणाम खूप काळ टिकून असतो. हे वरवरचे बदलत्या गोष्टींना तसं काहीही मूल्य नाही आणि काही ठोस कारण नाही कि ते ह्या क्षणी इथेच का पाहिजे. म्हणजेच आपण गोष्टींना मूल्य देऊ शकतो आणि जे पटत तेच केलेलं योग्य आहे. शेवटी सर्व गोष्टी तुलाच येऊन संबोधित होतात पण म्हणून आमचं कार्य काही टळत नाही, हो ना?! तु आम्हाला कार्य करायला निर्माण केल आहेस, तर आम्हाला ते करणे भाग आहे. तुझीच इच्छा कार्यक्षम आहे, म्हणून हा सारा जगाचा घाट!

तसच काय केल्यामुळे काय होईल किवा निर्माण होत राहील  = ह्या बद्दल तुझाच विचार हवा. तुझा विचार म्हणजे तुझ्यावर श्रद्धा आणि निव्वळ प्रतिभा ह्या धारणेतूनच कार्य झालेलं बर.

आम्हाला तुझ्या पर्यंत पोहोचो आणि तुझ दर्शन घडवून आण!

हरि ओम.

Shree: Memory

 

Shree: Memory

Everything is interconnected and is a part of one system of dependence and response as an idea, concept, and existence. Existence is of One medium that gets reflected into vibrations, forces and finally forms that respond to one another. Therefore, identity of one is a function of identity of system which in itself is a function of Existence.

Hence memory is required to expand from individual forms of body and mind to interconnected aawareness of systems to the One universal Truth. We talk of memory only from human perspective - that too also as mind and body and something as ‘mine’! How narrow minded is that! Memory is also of dfferent life forms, is also there in plants and is also there in environment – as awareness and connections. So essentially, memory then is about vibrations and connections with the universal Truth. Memory functions in Existence and not out of It. The reason that I respond through memory (or “I” itself is informed from memory) means that I am connected to the One; I am from One; the Truth of the self is Oneness. Therefore, memory cannot be invididual, but is always collective and this collective angle is something that brings about engagement, discussion, debates, appropriateness, criticality, morality, feelings, analysis and so on.

Without the idea of collective, I would not exist.

Hari Om.

Shree: Abstraction

 

Shree: Abstraction

As architects and human beings we are always abstracting any experience born from vibrations. In its fundamental ‘form’ an abstraction means Existence as pure experience wherein even time and space are excluded. This is the intent of philosophical undertaking – abstracting the ‘self’ to an extent that it expands and achieves a universal dimension beyond limitations of space and time.

Architecturally we then mean experiences that go to a deeper level of consciousness where even language or thought does not exist and only feelings become. This may become a process of perceiving and conceiving built environment after all.

It is not the visible that matters, but the abstraction of the visible domain that is hinted and from which, the visible becomes.

Hari Om.

Shree: outward gaze

 

Shree: outward gaze

Outward gaze. Anything that is ‘outward’ or visible or form perceived means it has come from subtle vibrations and the presence of One medium that has no form or movement but only exists. One acts and thinks in the phenomenal (outward and vibration based) world and that compels one to connect with other forms (of the web) based on phenomenal behavior. Is the phenomenal behavior real? The mind has made it real although it is temporary. The world goes on with the assumption that each form is separate and hence should defend itself or prove itself out of fear of death. This means to forget Who is the absolute Creator of all this world. The fear is so subtle and deep rooted that all actions outwardly undertaken have no effect on subtle vibrations that keep erupting. In order to access those and not get disturbed or influenced by these vibrations, some methods are required to be practiced.

We are referring to building of Trust, remembering God and taking the Name of God.

Leave it all to God and remember Him. All is His; all actions are His; all sequences are His; all separations are His; all connections are His; all forms are His; all change is in Him; all scales and times are in Him; all movements and transitions are His.

Hari Om.

 

श्री

 

श्री

संकल्पना खूप सूक्ष्मातून उद्भवत राहते आणि ती बुद्धीवर आणि अनुभवांवर आणि जगावर ताबा घेते. मुख्यतः संकल्पनाच मूळ वृत्तीतून निर्माण होत असते आणि ते ही भगवंताच्या अस्तित्वामुळे किवा त्याचाच शक्तिमुळे. हि शक्ति कायम स्थिर असते पण कार्य घडवते आणि भास निर्माण करत राहते आपल्या मनात आणि आपण सुद्धा त्यामध्ये निर्माण होत राहतो. तेच तेच करत राहतो आणि विचार चक्रात अडकतो. तर आपण गुण पदरात पाडून आलो आहोत आणि त्यात वावरत आहोत.

आज जेव्हा मी आई आणि बाबांचं बोलणं ऐकत होतो तेव्हा जाणवल कि भूतकाळाचा जोर किती असू शकतो – ज्या गोष्टी अस्तित्वातच नाहीत, त्याला पकडून आपण आपल अस्तित्व सिद्ध करण्याचा प्रयत्न करतो. विशेषतः बाबांचं पूर्वीचं कार्य आणि एक एक टप्पे त्यांना अजून अस्तित्वाची जाणीव करून देतात (ते अनुभव सोडवत नाहीत आणि ते अनुभव आत्ताची परिस्थिती त्यांना स्वीकारण्याची कदाचित शक्ति किवा बळ देतात)  - आता कुणी सांगाव कि हे विचार खोटे आहेत आणि भूतकाळात का आपण जगावं?! म्हणजे भूतकाळ किवा भविष्यकाळ – ह्या संकल्पना खूप प्रखरतेने आपल्या मना मध्ये परिणाम पाडू शकतात किवा आपण परिणाम पाडून घेत राहतो. आपण त्यांना चिकटून राहतो आणि त्या बदलत्या वृत्तीन्मधून वेगवेगळ्या संकल्पना निर्माण करत राहतो ज्यामध्ये बदलणारे किवा भासणारे चंचल भूतकाळ, वर्तमानकाळ आणि भविष्यकाळ निर्माण होतो. तीच परिस्थिती आईसाठी वेगळी आहे – ज्या गोष्टी बाबांना घट्टपणे धरून ठेवायच्या आहेत, त्याच गोष्टी आईला सोडून द्यायच्या आहेत आणि त्या कदाचित सोडण्यामध्येच “पुढे जाणे” ठरत असेल तिच्यासाठी.

माझ जर विचारलं तर त्या दोघांच्या अनुभवामध्ये मी घर का ना घाट का! बाजू घेणे ह्या मध्ये काही अभिप्रेत आहे का?! आपण दुखावतो तेव्हा मन, संकल्पना, विचार, त्यामागच्या गोष्टी, भासलेल स्थान मिळत नसावं किवा धीक्कार्ल जात असावं. म्हणजेच कि आपण खूप विचारांना चिकटून राहतो आणि अट्टाहास बाळगतो.

जस आई बाबांचं होत, तसं माझ्या बाबतीतही होत असेल – नाकोत्या गोष्टींचा विचार करत रहाण, संकल्पना करण कि उद्या सर्व ठीक होईल, निर्णय देत रहाण संकल्पनेतून, आणि तेच तेच विचार आणि समजुती बाळगत रहाण. म्हणजेच कि आपण ज्याला खरं मानत राहतो, त्याला चिकटून राहतो आणि काहीही झाल तरी मागे हटत नाही!

ह्याचाच अर्थ कि आपण काहीही निर्माण करू शकतो आणि त्याला सत्यपणा देऊ शकतो. मग प्रश्न असा उद्भवतो कि “सत्य” काय आहे? सत्य हे अस्तित्व आहे. ते आहेच, अनंत आहे, स्थिर आहे, एकमेव आहे. ते बनायला शिकायला पाहिजे. ते बनत जाणे म्हणजे श्रद्धा वाढवणे.

हरि ओम.

श्री: संकल्पना

 

श्री: संकल्पना

मला वाटत कि वृत्ती महत्वाच्या असतात. वृत्तीतूनच आपल्याला वाट अस्तीत्वाची मिळते. मी जसा आहे आणि जो कोणी आहे आणि जि काही संकल्पना आहे, ती वृत्तीतुन आणि अस्तित्वामध्येच निर्माण होत आहे. म्हणून संकल्पना येणार, त्यात बर्याच वाटा निर्माण होणार, आपल्याला निर्णय घ्यायला परावृत्त करणार, आणि बरेच प्रश्न निर्माण करत राहणार. ह्याला त्रासिक होण्याची गरज नाही आणि पळून जाण्याचीही गरज नाही. सिद्ध करण्याची गरज नाही. आणि आपल्याला काही औरच दिसत त्यालाहि समजून ‘देण्याची’ गरज नाही. वृत्ती काय दाखवणार आणि काय निर्माण होणार आणि अनुभव आपण कशे घेणार, हे कुणी सांगाव?! एखादी वस्तू किवा काळ किवा स्थळ काय दर्शवत आहे – हे त्या त्या वृत्तीवर ठरेल. त्यात बरोबर किवा चूक काही नाही. मुळात सर्व काही हा संकल्पनेचा खेळ आहे आणि ती संकल्पना एकाच सत्याच्या अस्तित्वातून निर्माण होत आहे. त्याला कुणी कितीही स्वतःच मन, विचारांचा आणि शरीराचा पगडा लावण्याचा प्रयत्न केला, तरीही वास्तविक भगवंताची शक्ति आणि त्याच अस्तित्वच सर्व गोष्टी घडवून आणत राहत आणि जे आपण सोयीस्कर विसरतो!

वृत्ती काळ आणि स्थळ आणि परिस्थिती निर्माण करत राहते – त्याचा अर्थ असा होत नाही कि काहीतरी त्यासाठी करायलाच पाहिजे! मुळात जे उद्भवत राहत ते ‘खोट’ किवा तात्पुर्त असल्यामुळे आपल्या संकल्पनेला तसं ठोस कारण नाही आणि बर किवा वाईट वाटून घ्यायचीही गरज नाही. वृत्ती काय आहे ते पहिले समजून घ्यायला हवी; तिच्या पर्यंत पोहोचायला हव आणि त्या सूक्ष्म पातळीवरून जग बघायला हव. तरीही ह्या गोष्टी कश्या घडून येतील हे देवालाच ठाऊक. संकल्पना असल्यामुळे अट्टाहास करता येत नाही आणि खात्री देता येत नाही. श्रद्धा ठेवायला लागते. एवढच सत्य आहे.

हरि ओम.

Shree: Memory

Shree: Memory

Memory is a powerful way of perceiving life. Memory is about existence and vibrations that create some thoughts, feelings and a form that perceives its existence based on some variables or conditions (or vibrations themselves). Is memory individual or collective? What does it include? In its fundamental form, memory has no boundaries (whatever they seem to be, those are constructs or self imposed) and since there are no boundaries, it means all Universe is One (or from One medium of consciousness). Boundaries mean generated from vibrations leading to thoughts and feelings and finally to a form. A boundary is “felt” (or imagined or constructed) as a function of how the form perceives itself. If boundary dilutes (meaning expands) then nature of perception increases, more subtle forces are felt and finally only the One stays. Hence the destination of all boundaries (or journeys of perceptions) is realizing the One. We are therefore on a journey till the inquiry takes shape in our thinking and then we arrive at the natural destination of becoming the One.

The idea of journey is important since it means that there is a strong meaning to all that we perceive and do. Why do we run, from what do we run, where do we run and how do we run (I like to call it “movement”) is in important undertaking. We will need to move (or vibrate) in some manner and in this movement or vibration; there are incidences of severe stress, dilemma, pain, and revelations and so on.

Memory may have existential dimensions and they would subsequently become timeless. Therefore questions of vibrations, meaning leading to process and forms, connections, time, scale and proportions, space become highly relevant. What sort of memory do we create when things change fast and cause “disruption” in consciousness? What sort of connectons, relations do we build with space and time and people? The answers to these questions will hint at the quality of spatial experiences we therefore create or see nowadays. Increased surveillance, automation, increased notions of privacy, demands on productions, demands on consumptions, resulting aesthetics, demands on increased teams in consultancy, increased demands on absolute control, lack of accountability, neglect of “public spaces”, apathy of discussing and designing anything regarding public or collective good, either too much mute spectatorship of public spaces or explosion of crushing noise/ revolt on public spaces, too much sterilization of spaces, too much self absorbtion and preoccupation with individual routines/ imaginations and so on, shrinkage of time, and so on.

We see the world of existence from our inner lens, which is always connected with a larger (and subtle and intangible) idea of life. Are we paying the cost of ignoring this idea of connection and subtleness of meanings?

Hari Om.

श्री

 

श्री

सगळ्या गोष्टी नकळत आणि सूक्ष्म प्रवृत्तीतून होत असतात – अस्तित्वाची खुण आहे ती. नकळत होतात, मुळ कुठे आहे ते बुद्धीला कळत नाही आणि होत राहतात आणि असंख्य संकल्पना निर्माण होत राहतात ह्यात सर्व काही आल – भगवंताच अस्तित्व. म्हणजे जग निर्माण करणारा आणि चालवणारा “तो एक भगवंत” आहे – ‘मी’ नाही आणि वेगळ कुणीही नाही. उगाचच वाटत राहत कि मी सर्व काही करतो आणि ताबा असतो पण तसं काहीही नसत आणि हेच मुळात आनंदाने स्वीकाराव लागत. स्वीकारतांना भगवंत आणि मी वेगळे नाही, कारण “स्वीकारण्यालाही” वेगळेपणा येतो. थोडक्यात सांगायचं झाल तर आपल्या वेगळेपणा वाटतो तो भास आहे – सत्य नाही. आणि वेगळेपणा अनुभवतो हि एक मानसिक स्थिती आहे ज्याच्या मध्ये वृत्ती, विचार, भावना, अश्या गोष्टी उमटत राहतात, बदलत राहतात आणि मावळतात. म्हणजे सर्व काही एक शक्ति हि कार्य करत राहते.

म्हणून काय होत राहत ह्यात चलबिचल होईण्याची गरज नाही. मुळ शोधण्याचीही गरज नाही, काळजी, तळमळ, चिंता, त्रास – ह्या भावनांना काही स्थान देण्याचीही गरज नाही. उगाचचं सतत सिद्ध करणे, पळणे आणि झपाट्याने कृती करत राहणे – ह्याची काहीही गरज नाही आणि हा एक प्रकारचा रोग आहे. जितका जास्त वेग, तितक्या गोष्टी अपल्या हातात येतील  - हा भ्रम आहे. गोष्टी कधी आपल्या तालावर नाचत नसतात आणि जे दिसतं राहत त्या वृत्तीही उद्भवत राहतात. वृत्ती न येणे – ह्याला आपण काही करू शकत नाही; वृत्ती तृप्त होणे ह्याला हि काही उत्तर नाही; वृत्तीमुळे कार्य न घडणे हे हि अशक्य आहे. तर मग हा सगळा प्रकार आहे तरी काय?

वास्तवीक वृत्ती शांत करणे आणि आपण त्याला न चिकटणे हे महत्वाच आहे. वृत्ती येतील; काहीतरी निर्माण करतील; आपल्याला वेगळ पाडतील; गोष्टी दाखवतील; आकार निर्माण करत राहतील; तात्पुर्तेपणा दाखवतील आणि पूर्ण जग नाचवत राहतील. ह्या सर्व गोष्टींना आणि संकल्पांना सामोर जायचं आहे शांतपणे. आणि ह्या गोष्टींचा दररोजच्या व्यवहारा मध्ये काय अर्थ आहे हे शोधून घायला लागेल. आपण कोण आहोत; तात्पुरते आहोत म्हणजे काय; आकार आणि भावना एकच आहे का; त्या का निर्माण होत राहतात; बदल का होतात; आपल्या मनाच्या कोण कोणत्या स्थिती असतात; सूक्ष्मातून स्थुलात आपण कशे येतो आणि बदल कसा घडतो; आणि असे असंख्य प्रश्नांची उत्तर कळून घ्यायला लागतात. हे कळणे म्हणजे आपल्या मनाच परिवर्तन होणे – माहिती नाही.

आपल्याला काहीही सांगता जरी नाही आल आणि अर्धवट माहिती जरी असली आणि तीही सिद्ध करता नाही आली तरीही सत्य बदलत नाही आणि त्यावरून आपण काही वेडे ठरत नाही आणि आपल्याला काही करण्याची गरज नाही; न्यून बाळगण्याची गरज नाही आणि सिद्ध करण्याचा प्रश्नच येत नाही. आपण शांत रहावं.

सत्य भगवंतच आहे. आपण श्रद्धा ठेवत जाणे.

हरि ओम.

Shree: cycles and boundaries

 

Shree: cycles and boundaries

Reminding oneself about how a situation gets perceived and how to respond is important. Behind everything there is God of course, but we still need to do our bit to realize that Truth. This is inevitable and in this process we have to let go off many inherited things which we take for granted and harp about the same. I am no perfect here and neither am I here to resolve anything of motion. Resolution is a compulsion one is born with since it is ingrained in our DNA to become One. To assume that time is short is nonsense and to control anything as compartments and also in absolute sense is too foolish even to attempt or believe this idea.

It is not ours to say how should things be or should work out or how should they be created. We have no stake in any of this and the concept of ‘we’ itself is an imagination but nothing absolutely true. Yet this requires to be worked upon – it cannot be known as a default experience. In current changing times – this idea of surpassing requires reinvention continuously. As cycles of perception, analysis, decoding and synthesis keep decreasing, one gets annoyed in this cyclic nature of thought limited to minute scales. My approach to this is ignore the compulsions created by cycles of speed and scales. Be comfortable in whatever cycles one defines for oneself.

For relaxing, no space or time is a prerequisite. Relaxation is a natural state of being and the Truth. All other things are said to be temporary, aspect of creation, having some vibrations or tendencies and so on. A form is seen and something is perceived – indicates a ‘boundary’ from the overall Creation Being. A boundary can be surpassed (or need not be formed) if a connection with the One becomes permanent.

So a boundary is some ‘form’ of the Creator – the form remains changing, dependent and temporary to its core. And it also indicates ‘you’.

Hari Om.

Shree

 

Shree

Things get resolved on their own in many ways beyond our imagination. Why we long to connect because it dissolves differentiation and that brings peace or bliss. In any form of my being currently, the picture formed or created is “incomplete”, connected, changing and fluid. So no matter what efforts are taken, they address a part of reality as conceived or perceived by us. As forms of creation, we have control over some aspects of existence and fundamentally there is only One medium that exists – we are forms of the same existence and hence feel a lot of vibrations that compel us to perceive and respond to phenomenal world of creation.

This response involves struggle and pain. And even when doing this, one is never sure of the result – one needs trusting this process of engagement.

I fear that I expect things to get resolved asap – meaning I expect absolute control and I despise opposition, I hunt for perfection, I fear that I will get ridiculed and so on – for incompleteness. We are all in this game - of defense. Fear or anxiety cannot lead us anywhere and always time will seem extremely “short” of pacifying mental concerns or anxieties. Something to be resolved as variables cannot resolve the wavering of the mind that always wavers and conceives many things.

So wavering should be allowed and in this, connections with people is required.

When all these things seem to be felt, there may be peace for us.

Hari Om.

Shree: memory

 

Shree: memory

Realization need not be followed with justification or a problem statement or a resolution to resolve. In fact all is creation, so all takes place as vibrations that create some imagination of thoughts and feelings and perception of a form. The imagination then assumes a role of an individual mind and hence perceives changes and dependence and impermanence. All is a construct and we operate in this situation. All is only One medium and unless that is realized through mind training, one keeps believing one is separated and keeps perceiving motion.

If this is realization, are we to solve this imagination? Is there any motive in doing so? Why should it be resolved?

I am bothered about justification and the compulsion to keep proving one’s existence. Existence has taken some conditions of being or dictated by vibrations and what we carry as thoughts and feelings and so on and sequences that get initiated…

Before all such motion and making of forms, there is only the presence of Existence. This existence, if vibrates, raises character of thoughts or forces which lead to forms and changes in the character of “memory”.

In its purest form, memory is existence, which we seem to have forgotten (that purest state of being). What we recall and what we do – is a reinforcement of the character of vibrations or about creations. But the memory which makes us is also given by God and hence one ideally does not forget one’s seed of becoming the Truth. However this needs to be discovered. The way to realization is filled with struggles and dilemmas and so on – this is an inherent part of our existence. We have to arrive and pursue the inquiry – it is much, much more than taking a stand or a position.

Hari Om.

Shree

 

Shree

Many things seem to happen when it comes to creation of thoughts – from vibrations to forms and how the mind operates. It is always One medium apparently perceived as “many” resulting in causal relationships between states of existences (forces and forms) and that creates a certain kind of response or compulsions or tendencies within us.

Challenge in contemporary times is of getting too much consumed in personal world of works or outputs at the cost of deliberation, discussion, debates and realizing common values. We expect change to be controlled, variables not to change, being predictable and not being hurt by anything. Being hurt or happy seems conditional at present depending on our perception of existence. Things only happen and they appear to be formed and changed and dissolved and connected to us in some ways. Things will keep happening, creating, forming, changing, remaining connected at extremely subtle levels of consciousness and hence we will be forced to respond to the world and will keep getting a feeling of impermanence.

One is trapped in this mechanism of trying to ‘escape’ and guard oneself against change. The focus is transcendence and being calm amidst change and knowing that all is One.  There is no reason to fear; to vibrate; to respond in a conditional manner. All is God’s creation; He is the only trigger of everything one perceives and because of His presence I am created as motion and I respond. Whether people talk or do not talk or say anything or do anything or act or whatever – we need to still remain calm within. Do not take anything personally; not even our own thoughts or feelings or inferences of incompleteness or isolations or loneliness. I am not responsible here for things that happen and are about to come. I only serve Existence of God and I only know this.

Hari Om.

Shree

 

Shree

My feeling is that one cannot talk of fear all of a sudden, focus on it from intellectual perspective and get rid of it – it operates at much, much deeper levels, is dependent on change that is observed through senses and thoughts, it presents an idea of time and space and it generates a feeling of impermanence or temporariness.

Can fear be addressed; is it contained in words or action or creation; or vibrations? All creation is a matter of vibrations that create thoughts and then forms. It represents a state of being or existing and hence this existence creates its own character of feeling. I think feeling is an integral part of existence and it is far more profound than just a physical dimension. Or when I say that I exist, there is a ‘physical form based dimension’ AND an intangible ‘feeling based dimension’ that is getting indicated in this statement.

There is an inquiry or a sort of incomplete position with which one is born or perceives life or vibrates. This attracts similar signals and then situations or forms and this only reinforces the position one is born into. Hence the mind is the generator of signals.

The question is why does this happen? This question again is a function of the ‘form’ that we operate as (human form). I think one becomes tranquil as one learns to accept this situation as it is and works one’s way by understanding how peace can be “realized” (not achieved by the way).

In this realization I do not think production and speed have got anything to do with it; neither has scale or quantum or space or time. These are tools to make one become peaceful but they do not have any independent existence on their own. Without the aspect of existence, time or space is nothing. In other words, the triggers of all kinds of motion is with the Lord. Surrender to Him. He is the focus of all our concerns and inquiries and actions.

Hari Om.

श्री: फुकट समर्थन

 

श्री: फुकट समर्थन

काही विचार मराठी आणि इंग्रजी मध्ये मांडायला हरकत नाही. आपण जे बघतो आणि ऐकतो आणि संवाद साधतो – त्या मागे कितीतरी गोष्टी अवांतर स्वतः मध्ये निर्माण करत राहतो आणि त्या निर्मिती मुळे आपण गोष्टी अनुभवतो किवा हेतू दर्शवतो जगण्याचा. हे जरी सरळ वाटत असेल समजून घ्यायला तरी ह्या निर्मितीच्या गोष्टी खूप खोलवर आणि सूक्ष्म पातळीवर होत असतात – बर्याच वेळेला बुद्धीच्या पलीकडे होत राहतात आणि म्हणून आपल्या “नकळत” निर्माण होतात – ते सर्व काही म्हणून गूढ ठरतात. “नकळत” म्हणजे जे बुद्धीच्या शक्तीला जाणवत नाही तरीही त्या गोष्टींच अस्तित्व असत. आपल्याला बेचैन करत राहत म्हणजे ह्या निर्मितीच्या गोष्टी आणि आपल्यावर होणारा परिणाम आणि आपलं गोष्टींना चिकटणे आणि त्यातून काहीतरी प्रक्रिया व्यक्त करत राहणे – हे चक्र चालूच राहत. हे जरा खोलवर बघू आता –

बर्याच गोष्टी आपल्या हाता बाहेर वाटत राहतात आणि होतातही – सर्व गोष्टी दृश्यास येणे शक्य नाही आणि आले जरी, तरी ते खूप वेगळ्या हेतू घेऊन आणि आकार घेऊन पुढे उभे राहतात. म्हणून आपण स्वतःला त्रास का करून घ्यायचा? त्रास करून घेतो म्हणजे अपेक्षा करतो कुठल्यातरी फळाची किवा कार्याची किवा समजून देण्याची. दुसरे व्यक्ती कुठल्या हेतूने  काम करतात आणि काय करतात आणि काय सांगतात आणि कसे विचार करतात त्याबद्दल आपण स्वतःला जवाबदार ठरवण्याची काही गरज नाही आणि मुळात “दुस्रेपणा” आणि “स्व” ह्याचा जरी नात असलं तरी ते “थेट” नाही किवा त्यावरून कोणी जवाबदार ठरत नाही. हि महत्वाची संकल्पना आहे कारण दृश्य कसं उद्भवेल, काय दाखवेल, कस बदलेल, काळ कसा दर्शवेल आणि त्यात आपलं काय होईल  - ह्याचा त्रेढा बुद्धीच्या हातात नाही किवा भावनेच्याही हातात नाही किवा कुठल्याही दृश्याच्या हातात नाही. म्हणजे आपण जसे आहोत, बुद्धी आणि भावना घेऊन – त्यातून आपला कश्यावरही हक्क सिद्ध होत नाही आणि करूही नये.

सिद्ध करणे हि बुद्धीची मागणी आहे, खोल भावनांची नाही. जशी बुद्धीच्या शक्तीला आपण प्रगल्ब करतो तस आपण बेचैन होत राहतो, त्रासिक होतो, कष्ट सोसतो, आणि एकटे पडतो. त्यातून आणखीन त्रास होत राहतो. बुद्धी “स्थिर” नाही आणि कुठलीच गोष्ट – वृत्तीन पासून ते शरीर पर्यंत स्थिर नाही तर समाधान कसं मिळेल? हा प्रश्न आहे, उत्तर अपेक्षित नाही कुणाकडून.

सध्या काय होत माहिती आहे का? आपण खूप धावपळ करतो आणि एकमेकांना चक्क “टाळतो”. कश्याला टाळतो? तर कठीण प्रश्न किवा परिस्थिती बघवत नाही. का बघवत नाही? कारण त्याच उत्तर काय असेल हे आपल्या बुद्धीला कळत नाही आणि जरी सत्य कळल तरी स्वीकारण्याची ताकद आपण प्रज्वलित करत नाही. आणि ते सांगण्याचा जरी प्रयत्न केला तरी समोरच्या व्यक्तीवर पाहिजे तो परिणाम होईल का हि शाश्वती मिळत नाही. मग अश्या वेळी काय बोलायचं आणि काय काय ऐकून घ्यायचं? असा प्रश्न वारंवार पडत राहील. जसा आता परिस्थितीचा वेग वाढेल, तर आणखीन असे बोचणारे प्रश्न पडणार. ह्या सर्व प्रश्नाचं उत्तर आहे कि आपल्याला वेळ द्यायला हवा आणि आपल्याला कुठेही पळून जाता येणार नाही. आणि आपण अहंकार ग्रस्थ झालो आहोत, जे आपण मान्य करत नाही आणि आपल्या वागणुकीच फुकट समर्थन करत राहतो. हे कळून सुद्धा प्रश्न सोसायला लागतात आणि सैय्यम वाढवायला लागतो. त्यामध्ये श्रद्धा, प्रेम निर्माण करायला लागत – हे करणे भाग आहे.

हरि ओम.

 

Shree: context

 

Shree: context

What is context? Is it outside – situation of motion or is it inside – character of vibrations? Or is context a relationship of inside-outside? Or finally, is context “a state of existence”?

This means that context is an imagined “idea” of existence (or some state of being). It is up to us what should be made ‘real’ for us  - change and dependence and their various states or just One Absolute Being?

However this is not only a question of debate or articulation or sequences. By default we long for knowing the Truth and transcending the wavering tendencies of the mind. The discovery of Bliss brings us to the state of being the Truth. For this, we need to dissolve. And this process will take us to various steps, scales, times, linkages, subtleness and so on.

Presence of subtleness is the trigger for all actions and creations one sees or perceives in a human form. Whatever we see as objects or feel as forces or imagine – all are triggered from subtleness.

We require “faith” to believe the presence of the One. Inculcating faith is a process.

Hari Om.

Shree

 

Shree

There is always a focus that one can pursue, how much ever incomplete it may seem. Actually because things are incomplete, dependent, change, appear as many and are interrelated, there ought to be a focus to steady one’s thoughts. Focus is a method to becoming steady and transcending to Oneness. In motion, amidst a continuous world of vibrations and wavering thoughts, “focus” is a quality one can pursue to transcend motion and concentrating on the Truth or becoming the Truth, else we remain scattered and waste a lot of energy on thoughts, words, arguments and actions.

Energy means what and should then be deployed for what purpose? Energy is His. And if I am to feel this Energy of His, then I need to focus all actions in a way that will reveal that Truth of Energy. The validity, making, change of all forms completely depend on this Energy.

This may mean to become introverted, feeling vibrations, becoming silent and going inward – for this – a cost of ego would have to be paid. But this cost to be paid….wouldn’t it be worthy of a noble cause?

 

Hari Om.

Shree: architecture of Existence

 

Shree: architecture of Existence

Existence is mysteriously experienced. What is existence is to realize what is the meaning and the certainty of “Truth”? Currently existence is seen as motion, movement, foms, connections, dependence, change, differences and so on. Truth is not a logical statement or a word or a fact or an object or a decision making process – it is to BE. It means to exist in a particular state of ‘mind’ (vibration). And what is that vibration? That is what needs to be realized.

Contrary to popular belief, there is no such thing as vacuum or a compartment. Anything is “filled completely” with a nature of existence. Anything of any scale is connected and related as some form(s) of vibration(s). We can talk of existence as physical properties of scale, proportions, connections, sequences, relationships, diagrams, forms, time and many other attributes and we can also talk of existence in terms of qualities of awareness, feelings, thoughts, and so on. So existence will present to us two dimensions - physical aspects (space-time web) and awareness/feeling aspects and these two also are interrelated and become one and the same in the absolute form.

It makes no sense to talk of scales and proportions if one does not understand its relationship to feelings and vice versa. But in an absolute state of being, the scale and proportion expand to become ‘One entity’ – which means ‘Bliss’ (as a feeling or ‘zero vibration’.

Therefore when people talk of feelings, there is an idea of scale that is being implied and when they talk of forms or proportions, it needs to be assessed for the impact on feelings. Because there exist vibrations of Existence, It can be felt through space-time AND feelings.

Therefore this means that physical and feelings are modes of knowing the Truth. A form may indicate some aspect of feelings and a feeling may indicate an aspect of a form.

This brings us to the necessity of realizing the quality of connections one generates – one can expand till all scales, proportions, time and feelings become infinite and steady. There is a reason why a strong critique on fragmentation exists – because it ruptures the basic understanding of existence!

At the core, we are talking of architecture of Existence.

 

Shree: variables

 

Shree: variables

Shree, it is bewildering to feel burdened and impacted with systems and the craze of control. Fundamentally, the control is about restricting change (and even death or the idea of temporality or impermanence). Part of the answer to manage this anxious feeling is to keep discussing fundamental things about existence and for this, I do not think that system can help in any way – or even if it could then it should be devised in a way that this gets vented out. Suppressing under a carpet and compartmentalizing does not dissolve this feeling. And more the systems and dots, more is the buried anxiety of isolation that “speeds up” production – like a traffic system – you increase roads or flyovers but the traffic increases further! By control and systems, you attract “more anxiety”!! Therefore it is not an issue of control by defining any variables and sequences in the equation. Actually, more variables, mean less scales are being targeted, more change affects the variables and more connections of such tiny variables are felt – that makes a variable very much unstable to handle. Hence the current situation of control, systems, variables mean more stress and more anxiety and more mental unstableness.

In simple terms, if you expect “control” (wish to micro manage things) then it causes huge amount of stress. We need to accept and make room for empty spaces to create variables of different kinds.

Maybe calmness and talk and slowness is the key.

 

Hari Om.